People have a problem with eating crow. It sucks having to eat crow or admit you were wrong about something. It’s to the point now that even parents who lose their children to a vaccine side effect will tell others to still get it because they won’t admit they caused their child’s death by forcing it on them. That’s very dark, but it’s true.
It happens all the time with people who refuse to accept a loss, a mistake, or a failure as their own fault. This post is not here to propagandize about a vaccine or people’s liberal pretense leading to their inevitable deaths when they refuse to realize a 3rd world country is dangerous.
I saw a guy on YouTube who was convinced that Pakistan was a peaceful country. He was eating at some fish restaurant in a dangerous neighborhood, and a local came to him asking where his bodyguard was. He claimed it was a peaceful country and didn’t need a guard.
A policeman came up after getting a tip that someone was planning to kidnap this foreigner and kill him. The policeman came up and said he needed to leave and go back to his hotel for his own safety. The same idiot said it was a peaceful country, and he was safe there. He was from Australia, not Pakistan. He believed in the liberal principle of Islam being the religion of peace and that these dangerous countries were misunderstood, and that he put his life in danger instead of admitting he was wrong.
People will go to any length to admit they are not wrong. Even if it means losing their life or their child’s life, all because they can’t eat crow and admit defeat. Admit a failure. Admit a lack of judgment. Admit that they were blinded by their own pretentious ideology that they were wrong. That their entire worldview is wrong. That they are wrong and harming themselves and others in seeking to avoid eating that crow.
What does any of this have to do with me? Simple. I profited from other people’s misery in the past. I made videos, live streams, and entire shows dedicated to criticizing and judging people I considered to be bad or wrong in some way. Where did I get the authority to judge another person being based on what I see online?
I made countless videos criticizing, dissecting, and lambasting people I thought were immoral, stupid, or awful human beings for their views or actions. I did it for profit. I caused emotional harm to people for money and clout. That’s not how I should operate, and I refuse to engage in such activities from this point forward.
There is an entire industry based on destroying people for wrong think. Both sides do it, and both profit from slinging arrows at the other. Watch any cable news channel and realize they are committing character assassination for profit, not as a public service.
Their job is not to tell you the news. It’s to make you angry and make you hate people they want you to hate. To brainwash you into thinking that the other side or a certain person is worth scorn because the talking head said they are.
Think about how the media worshipped Trump before he was a Republican. Rappers were talking about him as if he was the peak of society. A self-made rich guy who owned most of Manhattan. A guy who the black community worshipped for years, including the race grifters like Al Sharpton and Jesse Jackson, who celebrated Trump. Now all they do is shit on him for every tiny infraction they can find. Remember how they screamed about him getting two scoops of ice cream? Exactly.
I did the same with SJWs and later people like Ethan Ralph and other “lolcows” who people torture for their own sick entertainment.
We made documentaries, streams, and every time our lolcow of choice would fart or tweet, a video had to be made dissecting it for the hungry piranhas we cultivated as an audience. It’s not. The fact of the matter is I fucked up. I fucked up by letting myself go from bringing people joy and community on Twitch in 2014 to chase the dragon of being a “critic” on YouTube. Being that guy who reported on everything and dissected people to the point that I saw them as targets instead of human beings.
I did exactly what is being done to me now by a few of my critics. That’s fine. They are doing what I did, and maybe one day they will realize that I’m a human being too, and they’ll write their own too long, didn’t read apology. If you can’t read a 1000+ word apology, you probably weren’t reading my books either.
I apologize for my misconduct in creating content that tore down my fellow man for people’s entertainment. I’m sorry for causing stress, anger, and emotional toil to people I only saw as punchlines to get viewers and super chats. I apologize for letting myself become just another talking head that does nothing but shit on others for the amusement of piranhas who have no business criticizing others who haven’t looked in a mirror in years.
I finally saw myself in the mirror, and it hit me. I caused the same type of suffering, loss of sleep, anger, and self-destruction by tearing down other people for years for a profit. I deserve this scorn that I get now. That’s why I’m never going to do another drama show or engage in gossip with another person. Let the tabloid vultures do that. It’s their job, after all.
How are we any different from the SJW mobs who cancel people they disagree with if all we do is lambast, and destroy those who we deem immoral? Isn’t the entire point of cancelling someone is you felt they did something wrong or something embarrassing and using that to destroy said person? How are we any better than the leftists who cancel people left and right then smile at us as if they accomplished something with their miserable lives.
I see that I made an error in judgement now. Any a-logging or obsessive shows about me are warranted. I deserve the shit flung my way as retaliation for the mistakes I made in my past. The thing that bugs me the most and keeps me up at night as the fact that people can’t take an apology or a mea culpa. They have to continue to dig and use my past mistakes against me, yet bitch about the people who dig up 10 year old tweets to cancel people like Kevin Hart. It’s hypocrisy plain and simple and I engaged in that. For that I also apologize.
If you feel I have misrepresented you in my past content, or that I have caused you any harm emotional or otherwise I’m sorry. I will not do it again, because now I know what it’s like to be the guy pinned to a cross with tomatoes being flung at him. To all the people who can’t accept this apology or who continue to criticize me to make yourselves feel better. Go fuck yourselves.
To quote StyxHexenHammer
That’s about all, peace out.